i’ve learnt that such ppl doesn’t deserve a second of ma life, let alone a tear frm ma face. Thanx darling.. u picked me up wen i shattered in2 nth but worthless rubble. Im now a stronger person. Love ya, B.
Anyway, ma exxamz r now OFFICIALLY ova. itz like, havin urself inching towards wut i wud call, freedom. Oh.. speakin of it, i chose that title foh ma english essay- ‘freedom‘ With tha finalz outta ma way, i can at least concentrate more n being there fer ma hubby when he studies fer SPM n ma camp preps too.. finally, a switch of priorities. Hmm.. 2day wuznt a swell one foh me.. got a bit (actually, VERY) upset ova sum stuff.. n mom agitated me on tha phone.. hmm.. but i’ve taken care of that..
When ya actually think all is ova, tha results. YES. tha most feared resultz of tha finalz…. ma class hv gotten our Add Math already, n gonna get our Moral ones this Friday… I juz wanna get over n done with it… *ponders*
Man, i didnt noe how i felt yestaday…. troubled, crushed, mixed, confused.. only ma frenz noe bout it… Hmm.. but hey, itz ova~! *schmilez*
anywayz, today wuz juz a day like any other… i PRAISE GOD dat ms. Koay wasnt in da hse!!!! *yeeehaw!!* wadeva. So yeah… a kinda controversial conversation cropped up.. yeah… THA MALAYSIAN IDOL issue… Hmm… truth to tell, i absolutely lorrrve Daniel… but, c’mon.. d one we’r voting here is the idol.. the singer… the malaysian starr~! tat is definately NOT daniel…. fullstop. Nita shall reign~! ^_^
type VOTE NITA and send to 33722
Malaysia depends on u!!!! you go~~~~~~~ do wat is right !!
ahh… so back 2ma ramblings.. i didnt noe wut got in2 me.. but, i started playin a lame prank on ppl… probly cuz i wuz so darn bored.. Hmm.. i took out tha nib ov ma highlighter, n askd ma classmates to test ma “new” highligther.. then they ended up scraping their textbookz… =P *muahaahahhah* pretty sick ey>? But i had fun… laughin with em’ but who has d last laugh>? THEM!! for ma notebook had pathetically absorbed tha ink frm tha nib! N there u have it… hideous blotches of pink…. arrggh crap! >_<
Hmmm… sumhow, i got tha nickname lemon today… cuz i wuz kinda sulky in tha aftanun n ma popcorn boo juz named me after that sour citrus fruit.. loike duhh… ma face wuz rlly sour itself~! Very apt… but hey, ur d popcorn!!! N hmm…. Binky! Luv frm, Hubbles! =P
u probly wudnt noe wut dat is…. yeah.. me neither… =P Add Math Project is driving me nutz~! Damn! Hmm… ya noe durin one ov tha Chemistry lessonz, i made ma way out cuz yeah, i didnt wanna hear her (grasshopper) no more…. I went loafing around d sch but i din lose track ovv time! *phew* Wen i got back, i expected ma class 2b at d next page already…. BUT, she wuz still at dat SAME OL’ queztion.. da same one since tha moment i left! wooo….
apparently, she screwed ma classmatez real BAD. Summin bout our attitudez i guess… n tha “u think ur so smart” accusation came ramming in our earz! oh woww… like, HELLO??? Where da fudge dija get tha wild idea dat we think we’r so smart? If we actually are, we wudnt sit thru ur damn lesson woman! *snarlz* and summin bout 2centz.. yeah, u read rite… 2centz. Dat calculative obcessed fussy pot of lipid- woman shud noe when 2hold her tongue b4 she parps any more!
Wateva. Pink roses? Cheesecakes? Teddy bearz? Sounds pathetic…. she actually HINTED more than a couple ovv timez 2us dat she wanted those on Teacherz Day! *groanz* Probly no one wantz 2givvem 2her… she had 2ask her victimised studentz 2do so. Wut? so dat she can braaaaaaag 2tha whole staffroom bout her gifts? Fullstop. Class 4arif hate ya so live wivvit!
Brimming wiv madness! lll–jess out!—> can u get anymore pissed wiv tat dimmwit?
“… when ur shattered in remorse, look back u musn’t.. ask urself wut mistakez u made…?”
Itz da pain dat u feel, tha agony u receive, tha regret u bear afta knwing tat u kant ezcape frm anything….. God taught me tiz lesson…. tiz wuz d worst blow 4tha week. Actuall, He taught me much but i do not sem 2heed.. alwiz caught up in ignorance. *sigh*
Perhapz it aint seemin of much importance.. but wen put 2getha, u’ll see… in ma competitive upbringin, parentz who expect tha most outta me and securing future need… i aint 2dramatic here but yeah, i AM tellin tha truth… to you.. ma online diary… yess.. i aint afraid 2show ya how i feel.. cuz… itz me. Alrighty then here goez!
I skipped sch last Wed, Thu, Fri… fer no gud reason.. in fact no reason at all… perhapz i juz didnt feel like it… So d aftamath>? I didnt juz miss sum important lessonz….. i missed d chance…. one opportunity.. wud u grab it? or let it slip? Well… i let it slip rite in fronta ma bare handz… on Friday, d English Language Society had our AGM. Yeah, i aint tellin ya no more…. u shud noe.. i didnt attend. Like, DUH?>? How am i sposed 2noe there wuz a meetin>? No one actually told me!
Datz juz not da deal im afta… itz tha pain… 2see.. tat afta being a Vice President.. I had tiz chance 2b in tha running as Presidant foh d next AGM.. but i had noe idea there wuz a meeting on Friday bcuz of ma abscence frm sch… (n well, no one told me eitha) So, ma name got disqualified frm tha nominationz…. Juz imagine… tha remorse ya feel… Isnt it juz wasted away b4 ur eyez? Tha KK marx, tha pride of managing ELS n bringin it 2light and 2secure significance- datz ma promise to Mrs. Tan… Hell no one noticed but afta d last AGM, she pulled me 2one side and made me promise her.
Well… im sorry Mrs. Tan, sorry mom, sorry dad, sorry B, sorry esp ma godmom… whom has been ma English rival since i first spoke… yeah, she graduated frm Leeds and im proudda her.. im honoured to be ur competitor… i noe u were proud wen mom told u i got Vice President.. and u were so confidant i cud be tha next head… i guess ur wrong now.. itz ma fault. I skipped sch and i missed a golden opportunity.. *sigh*
but, Lord.. thank u for sendin me yet anotha msg.. i noe… i’ve bn notty…. i’ve bn waken up so many timez b4.. Joycelyn where r u wen i need u?? =) *sigh* Aww c’mon get a grip Jess!!!!!! Damn!!
hey… well… frm d otha side ovv me, im proudda ma fren Shantini who took over as ELS president……….. itz tuff to say but it cumz frm d heart: congratulationz buddy! i hope ya bring us 2success…………….. if ya need help… i’ll b there…. rememba…..
-i’ve grown smaller than a pea jess out.
Information : courtesy of tha ex- president of ELS.. she told me wut happened… =(
oooh.. lookie.. tha black monday has arrived.. *rollz eyez* I actually lumbered 2sch wiv sucha black face but wen ma sightz set on ma fwenz, *yeehaw* i instantly lighted up! Yeahh.. itz amazin how frenz change weatherz ‘up-there’ So yeah.. sch started as usual and well… i wuz actually LOST in dat freakin add-math project she wuz blabberin about. *sigh* I wasnt in sch foh d last lesson so……. yeah…. u cud hv guessed… i was goin bonkerz ova wut she wuz yadda-ing in fronta me. C’mon! Lame ol’ kementrian… we’ve got enuff burdenz ourselvez! =(
Lessonz went on and on as usual n tha pwur ol’ me.. (who hasnt bn in sch faw quite sum time) had a tuff time putting two and two 2getha.. (such depression) wel.. b4 matterz actually got worse, here cumz ms. ong again wivv her addmath project crap! Total rubbish! I wuz wailing ma brainz out and startrd sighing out LOUD. She evn askd me y i wuz tired but i told her blatantly” im not tired.. i juz dununderstand wut ur tokin about” She juz chuckled 2herself… awww not sum sympathy upon meeeee??? ^_^
As depressed i wuz, i started 2doodle on ma textbookz and filez again… hmm… but thank God, A fren o’ mine… namely Joycelyn taught me all i needed 2noe! Hmm…. pretty much exasperating though…. but her effortz came 2light! Yeeeeah! i understood! Hmm.. mebbe imma write it down all ova again… juz 2b sure!
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