It has been a long time since I came up with an emo post. But.. it’s no fault of mine doing it now. After all, this IS my virtual diary.


What’s going on right now in my little figment of thoughts? No one knows.

and neither do I.

As a random thought passes by,
Why is my mind heaving a sigh?
I can’t comprehend where I’ve turned,
I guess all I have to do now is to learn.

Brimming in me was one dream, one goal and one aim,
Now it feels like every bit of effort is in vain,
I guess some things will bound to cease
Even though I yearn it to increase.

Draining little by little, the fuel is burning out,
How I wish I could shout it out loud,

I just want me and my spirits to be the same again,
With the right priorities to be focused as the main.

I’m aimless and losing direction,
Halting midway at this very strange junction,

I need a light to show me the way,
Amen to : what come what may

I feel mute in every way,
The virtual world has made my attention sway,

Where I seek solace from the harsh reality,

At things that may be of nothing but complexity.

idk. I’ve slacked alot. In my priorities, in my coursework, in my grades (from As to B+s. Somehow I sense a B coming in soon at the end ofthe semester), and in my conduct in general. And no, I do not need anyone to tell me that – for I can feel it. within.

Call my name and save me from myself

Would someone please slap me on the head and wake me up?? I’m way in over my head.

I think I need a boost

I’m sorry mom. I’m sorry to anyone I’ve affected.. and to YOU. thanks for counting sheep backwards with me and that yelloebanana game.


and I promise that I will buck up. Get back on track. However strange that my only rival is myself, it somehow lingers in familiarity.

.. and with the horrible stomach ache I had just now,
it doesn’t get ANY better.

I’m sorry Jessica,
I don’t want to see you like this either.